Things she told me (3)

"I love you. And I love how you laugh"

"I only wanted to kiss you on the forehead"

"I believe you're infinitely strong. This too shall pass. It was home seeing you laugh today, i miss your smile..."

"I just miss you"

"I'm in such a good mood, i wish you were here"

"You're my life's greatest blessing. I love you, eternally."

"Maybe i just miss you and you're my only reason to be optimistic"

"I'm happy i have you to call the love of my life, as corny as that sounds."

"simply seeing you makes me feel better."

"I'm insanely in love with you"

"I need you."

"I'm getting too attached to you"

"I would never be able to put definition to how i love you... You redefine that for me in subliminal ways and in the smallest of gestures."

"You could've cried in my arms"

"I want to kiss you"

"I made a boy read!!"

"Sorry for being so childish and clingy"

"Do you want me to cook for you?"

"I'm sorry i overlooked the fact that you're tired"

"I have a screaming urge to love you and stroke your hair to sleep.."

"Mohammed i feel clingy and i hate missing you"

"I think I know the reason behind my good mood. Thank you for being my family and my life"

"I even love our silences"

"Why can't you be here to run your fingers through my hair till i fall asleep?"

"No one is capable of loving you as much as i do!"

"You'll be here before I miss you to death right?"

"Get some rest and dream of me? Daydreaming would do if you have no time to sleep!"

"Did i cross your mind?"

"I could feel it yesterday how much you love me. It was in the air, floating along the Nile, and it was encircling me. Thank you.."

"What if it makes me miss you and cry like a baby?"

"I smell like you"

"I can't sleep, I need to cuddle"

"I'm literally seksek deprived!!"

"I want you to tell me the shade of yellow i wore in your dream"

"You better save up for the engagement rings!"

"I want us back.."

"You called me baby! I love you!"

Dear You,

Where have you gone? It's been so long! and I miss you, I really do.

There's this person where you used to be. I don't like this person. Please come back.

I've been so lonely, and reading your old messages makes me miss you even more.

I know I sound weak saying this. I put up your old messages on my blog in hopes of you reading them and knowing how much I need you. I'm all alone. I need you more than ever. You were my everything and suddenly you left. 

If you're happy where you are and you won't come back please tell me. So that I can go on with my life and put our good memories in my backpack. Just know that I will always love you. And I mean it.

With all the power I've been given to love

Yours Sincerely

Mohammed

There's always a way

Dear Blog,

I've been waiting for quite a while, the days seem too long for me, I almost get no sleep, and my health condition is going down. It's not that I have anything to do with this, I'm as helpless as everyone else.
When you lose a limb, say your arm, it's not easy to function with the other one alone. It takes time. But I don't want to get used to functioning with one arm. As a matter of fact, I feel like I'm losing a piece of my heart, and this is not metaphorically speaking.
All my life I've been an independent person, but I am a person who is emotionally driven, and when I do fall in love with someone, that someone becomes part of me, part of my life, part of who I am.
I find no reason to what's going on, why things are getting this complicated, neither do I know where this is going, I hope and pray everyday for this to go in the direction I've been longing for for the past two years. I've worked hard for this, so hard, she too has worked really hard for this, and it's just unfair if things go wrong.

Dear blog,
I'm not writing you this to complain, but to ask you to pray for us. We are almost perfect together, we are happy together, and I know that if the whole world is against us, it doesn't matter, because in the end we'll walk down an isle, heads up. Because I know that when there's a will, there's always a way.

Yours Sincerely
Mohammed J. ELGohary
Alexandria, Egypt
23rd of July 2009