The Whitest Flower

This is totally irrelevant to the situation in the country, but fuck it I've always hated politics, never was interested in it, and am pretty much fed up of the mind games..... so here's something to get me out of the mood.... a new cheesy song I'm working on:

When I wake up every morning I think of you
Wondering what could be the best that I could do
To put a smile on your face

You give me super powers
You are the whitest flower

You know I don't have to be the best man in the world
I could also be so so bad with words
But you know it doesn't matter

Because you give me super powers
You are the whitest flower

Now I know this song is super dooper cheesy
But trust me when I say that it's not so easy
And I bet that now you're smiling

Because I have super powers
And you're the whitest flower

I'll try to always be the bestest at everything
As cliche as it may sound
For you're the queen of this kingdom and I'm the king
And today we get crowned

Now it feels so good today and I'm going around the city
Even though the situation's not so very pretty
Gathering all the white flowers for you

Because you give me super powers
And you're the whitest flower




Listen:
Jack Johnson - Banana Pancakes

She leaves me in awe

Like green crystals shining smiles to the sun
Like madness embraced in a simple kind of peace
Her eyes deliver warmth to my soul like no one
And she leaves me in awe

Reckless as i was, a man of my own
I'm suddenly in a world
Where hope rises with every dawn
And she leaves me in awe

She lifted what's left of my goodness
Put everything back, properly, correctly
And made it seem so damn effortless
And she leaves me in awe

As cliché as it may seem
But no words can describe
Such happiness as if from a dream
How she leaves me in awe

Every time she looks me in the eye
And every time we hold hands
And the one time I saw her cry
Before she left to another land
And every time she speaks
I fall into a deep well of music
Music that's favourite to my ears
Even when she does nothing

Still.... she leaves me in awe

Song:
Yiruma - River Flows in You

Guardian Angel

In Reality
you are fictional
and in fiction
you could be as close to perfection as can be
for when we are united, an equilibrium is generated
one which cannot be reasoned
the only reason for which could be righteousness
for because of you
I am a good man
again
and because of you
I am the happiest i´ve been
in ages
and why am I not surprised?
for your name alone means joyfulness
And it´s precisely what you´ve brought into my life

You are the perfect ending to a rather unusual year
and the perfect beginning of a new year
a new life
and everything else that I am looking forward to

and like he said
You are my guardian angel.
And I believe you are.

You are missed, greatly :)

Song:
Dave Matthews Band - Dive In

An Infamous Encounter

He turned around and said "what if I slap you on the face right now?"
"why would you do that?"
"because I feel like it?"
"Well, as long as it won't hurt" and she smiled.
He smiled back, then he took her hand and started walking along the pavement by the Nile.
They never looked back.
She took a sneaky glance at his face while they were walking. A glance that said "I love you, for everything that you are, and everything that you do"
He pretended as if he didn't notice that glance, and he could feel a wide grin within his soul as he took a deep breath of fresh, Nile-enriched air.

He then noticed, that they were walking in the exact same place where, almost 3 years ago, he realized that he was falling for her.
Things always happen for a reason.
She was his reason.

Was his reason.


Song:
Louis Armstrong - What a Wonderful World

A Random Post with no specific point

I've been away

exams, things.....

Lack of words, maybe?

Sometimes I feel like a little boy, I want to grasp every opportunity of fun and enjoyment that comes my way. Some people don't understand that.

Sometimes I disengage, in my own head, silence, and think of things that might make my life a bit different than what it is at the moment. Good different? Bad different? I don't know, just different.

I think I can handle anything, stress, pain, fuck-ups, extreme joy, excess passion, you name it. Because quite frankly, I'm not waiting for results anymore, I make my own results.

The past few weeks have been fruitful, Egypt winning the African cup again (3rd time in a row, 7th time in total), and it kind of makes me proud.

The feeling of success is amazing, it cannot be put into words.

Also, Salalem, my band, is going through a transitional "growing" phase at the moment and it looks promising, I'm psyched about what lies next.

And I have discovered that I have friends who, undoubtedly, make my days happier. It's a different kind of love.

I have one year left to become an Engineer, and quite frankly, i still don't know what I want to do next. I mean the outline is there, just not the content. It's scary, but challenges have always been one of my hobbies.

Now I'm on vacation for 3 weeks, I want to go back where the world stops. And I want to get on as many stages as I can, and perform. I want to see my parents and I want to be as productive as can be.

Join me.

Today's song is a song that describes me:

Metallica - Turn The Page

I could be wrong.

Yes i could be

I could be thinking the other way round

I could be dwelling over a faded sound
I could be

I could be misinterpreting everything

I might not even have the true ability to sing

I could not need the things i think i need

I could need less
I could be less of a mess

I could let go and smile
I could be

I might have needed the bigger picture

The "new" bigger picture

Because the old one is too outdated

The new big picture seems to look good

I think i'm positive it is

I could let go of the old

and grasp the new

I could grow up.... i should grow up

Maybe things are too complicated because i let them be so

I should be the music to a new song
Telling everyone that I could be wrong

Today's song:

Sixpense None the richer - Kiss Me

The Air of Cairo

It's exceptional
How the wind blows through your hair
That I could only pause and stare

It may be Sceptical
How the wind always blows in the right place
Showing hidden brightness on your face

It's like it carries around your heavenly scent everywhere i go
It's like it passes through imaginary meadows into icy snow
It's like it guides the stream of the river telling it where to flow
It's like it teases all the flowers making them stand in woe
It's the breeze that flows through you into the air of Cairo

We walk, or perhaps we run
Into a life, one that makes us one
A journey with an everglowing sun

Raise your head, smell, or rather taste the breeze
Lay down next to me and let time freeze
Let the wind blow mellow music into our ears

 

 

Here's your song for today:

Aqualung - Strange and Beautiful

Gratitude

"Silent Gratitude isn't much use to anyone" - Gladys Bronwyn Stern

 

  

Be thankful. For you are blessed.

You have been blessed with a life and a choice as to how to live it. You have been given options despite the choices you had to make unwillingly. But in the end, it's your life and however it turns out, you are the one who shapes it however is convenient to you and everything around you. Others have no life and no choices.

Be thankful. For you have been blessed with health. 

You have been blessed with a body and a soul. Cherish them. Don't missuse them. For they are your most powerful tools. Till the day you say goodbye.

Be thankful. For you have been blessed with Love.

You have been blessed with love, love is everywhere, love and be loved, love is the nutrition for your soul. Let your soul nourish and embrace the love around you.

Be thankful. For you have been blessed with family and friends.

You have been blessed with people who accept you for who you are. Your goods and bads. And love you all the same.People who miss you when you're away. People who leave a mark on your life forever. People who inspire you. People who make you smile. People who make you cry. And maybe a special person within these people who would do anything possible to make you happy. Know these people. Keep them. Love them as much as they love you. And always make sure they know you are thankful for their presence. Because you never know who will stay. You never know.

Be thankful. For you have been blessed.

Count your blessings. They are surely endless. Keep the good memories. Kill the bad ones. Be grateful. And never forget to show your gratitude. It's healthy for you, and for everyone and everything surrounding you. Because Silent gratitude isn't much use to anyone.

Be Good. Be happy. Be Thankful

Things she told me (3)

"I love you. And I love how you laugh"

"I only wanted to kiss you on the forehead"

"I believe you're infinitely strong. This too shall pass. It was home seeing you laugh today, i miss your smile..."

"I just miss you"

"I'm in such a good mood, i wish you were here"

"You're my life's greatest blessing. I love you, eternally."

"Maybe i just miss you and you're my only reason to be optimistic"

"I'm happy i have you to call the love of my life, as corny as that sounds."

"simply seeing you makes me feel better."

"I'm insanely in love with you"

"I need you."

"I'm getting too attached to you"

"I would never be able to put definition to how i love you... You redefine that for me in subliminal ways and in the smallest of gestures."

"You could've cried in my arms"

"I want to kiss you"

"I made a boy read!!"

"Sorry for being so childish and clingy"

"Do you want me to cook for you?"

"I'm sorry i overlooked the fact that you're tired"

"I have a screaming urge to love you and stroke your hair to sleep.."

"Mohammed i feel clingy and i hate missing you"

"I think I know the reason behind my good mood. Thank you for being my family and my life"

"I even love our silences"

"Why can't you be here to run your fingers through my hair till i fall asleep?"

"No one is capable of loving you as much as i do!"

"You'll be here before I miss you to death right?"

"Get some rest and dream of me? Daydreaming would do if you have no time to sleep!"

"Did i cross your mind?"

"I could feel it yesterday how much you love me. It was in the air, floating along the Nile, and it was encircling me. Thank you.."

"What if it makes me miss you and cry like a baby?"

"I smell like you"

"I can't sleep, I need to cuddle"

"I'm literally seksek deprived!!"

"I want you to tell me the shade of yellow i wore in your dream"

"You better save up for the engagement rings!"

"I want us back.."

"You called me baby! I love you!"

Dear You,

Where have you gone? It's been so long! and I miss you, I really do.

There's this person where you used to be. I don't like this person. Please come back.

I've been so lonely, and reading your old messages makes me miss you even more.

I know I sound weak saying this. I put up your old messages on my blog in hopes of you reading them and knowing how much I need you. I'm all alone. I need you more than ever. You were my everything and suddenly you left. 

If you're happy where you are and you won't come back please tell me. So that I can go on with my life and put our good memories in my backpack. Just know that I will always love you. And I mean it.

With all the power I've been given to love

Yours Sincerely

Mohammed

I Think..

I think I may be thinking too much
I think of everything all at once
I think of why I'm always the crutch
I think of when we lost that touch

I think of days of carelessness
I think I want that back again
I think of times of happniess
How thinking was so effortless

I think you took me for granted
When you thought I'd tolerate this
I think the world got wrongfully enchanted
I think that love is usually implanted


I think of going on a stage
I think of any stage as a home
I think of singing till I'm 40 in age
I think I possess a dangerous rage

I think you should stop thinking about that
I think that things happen for a reason
I think you should appreciate where you're at
I think thinking should be wide, not flat



I think, sometimes, of buying her coffee
I find pleasure in small gestures
I think surprizes make me happy
I think no one takes care of me

I think of holding my first child
For what a great father I'll be
I think of how much I'll be beguiled
I think of a smile, I'll smile, she'll smile

I think a smile goes a long way
I think that you should smile too
I think if you smile, it will go away
Smile my friend, and everything will smile back at you

:)

Hope

"Hope is a belief in a positive outcome related to events and circumstances in one's life. Hope is the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best. Hopefulness is somewhat different from optimism in that hope is an emotional state, whereas optimism is a conclusion reached through a deliberate thought pattern that leads to a positive attitude."


"Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul.
And sings the tune
Without the words,
and never stops at all."
- Emily Dickinson


I am a man of desire, a man of passion, a man filled with emotions, not the gay ones, but real emotions.
I have a heart so big, it can fit the whole world, literally.
I hate to hate, i sometimes do, but then i realise that hating is foolish, and i'm not a fool.
I am a man of love, and love is not easy, be it loving your family, your friends or your partner, it's a tough job. Yes, job!
Most of all, I am a man of hope.

Hope is my fuel, my ammunition, my shield against the world and enemies such as pessimism and despair, sadness and loss.

I hope for good days to come
I hope for happiness


I hope for clarity
I hope for faith
I hope for answers to unanswered questions
I hope for gratefulness and gratitude
I hope for hope
I hope for beauty
I hope for laughter and sincere giggles
I hope for success
I hope for self achievement
I hope for small things that make me happy
I hope for understanding
I hope for love
and i hope for more love

I'm not greedy neither am I selfish, I'm hoping for fairness, the world has to be fair to me because I've always been fair to the world.



I don't need sympathy or pity
I'm a persistant man

because i'm hopeful

and i love

i love and will keep loving

till the day i die


"Never deprive someone of hope; it might be all they have." - H. Jackson Brown Jr.

"Hope is only the love of life." - Henri-Frédéric Amiel

There's always a way

Dear Blog,

I've been waiting for quite a while, the days seem too long for me, I almost get no sleep, and my health condition is going down. It's not that I have anything to do with this, I'm as helpless as everyone else.
When you lose a limb, say your arm, it's not easy to function with the other one alone. It takes time. But I don't want to get used to functioning with one arm. As a matter of fact, I feel like I'm losing a piece of my heart, and this is not metaphorically speaking.
All my life I've been an independent person, but I am a person who is emotionally driven, and when I do fall in love with someone, that someone becomes part of me, part of my life, part of who I am.
I find no reason to what's going on, why things are getting this complicated, neither do I know where this is going, I hope and pray everyday for this to go in the direction I've been longing for for the past two years. I've worked hard for this, so hard, she too has worked really hard for this, and it's just unfair if things go wrong.

Dear blog,
I'm not writing you this to complain, but to ask you to pray for us. We are almost perfect together, we are happy together, and I know that if the whole world is against us, it doesn't matter, because in the end we'll walk down an isle, heads up. Because I know that when there's a will, there's always a way.

Yours Sincerely
Mohammed J. ELGohary
Alexandria, Egypt
23rd of July 2009