Does it have to be this way?

Sometimes i feel like i get it
sometimes i don't
and when i don't get it
it sucks

because here we are
making love like there's no tomorrow
too intense
overwhelming
to the extent that our heartbeats can be heard
from the room next door
and then you disappear

i've said things
at first
you said things too
but then suddenly you pulled the brakes
i can understand why
but i feel there's a truth behind the truth
something i wish to hear from you
that you already want to say
but you aren't saying because it's not time
or maybe the feeling is not mature
and you just want to make sure
but excuse me if i come to strong
because to me, this is the extreme opposite of wrong

i don't know what it is that i feel
it's nothing my mind can comprehend
it's too cheesy to be true
even more
it's like all my life i have been looking for something
something too impossible
and then i had lost hope
i became lonely
but only i can feel the loneliness
because i never let it out
i hate looking weak
Then you come along
and half an hour later my whole world turned around
but you don't feel it i know
you weren't there back then
you know me now

i'm an open book for you
read me over and over
and over again
and every time you read me
i'll rewrite the pages for you
just so that i become eternal
but i beg you


don't tear me apart
for it will tear my heart, again

This is for you, the things i won't be able to say
in fear of pushing you away
Well. You're going away anyway. Because everything happens for a reason

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