Moving on

Here I am, miles away. Smoke, tea and my guitar on my lap. Memories.

She lies in bed next to me, breathing peacefully. Her eyes tremble as if she's having disturbing thoughts.
She wakes up and i pretend i wasn't looking at her, "Good morning!" she says with a smile, the smile that captured me when we first met.

I smile and say, "you should leave now, before it becomes too late"


Song:
Michael Jackson - Who is it?

Detour Ahead

And once again, after 2 years, 9 months and 8 days, my life takes another sharp turn into the unknown.
It's scary, but i'm curious. My curiosity has no limits, I find out and realize things every day, and every day i formulate new ideas, new thoughts.
The people who at one point in your life were the fuel to your engine-like-soul, can suddenly become the itch that irritates you to the point of shear anger.

Anger.
It's an acquired attribute to me now, along with the basket-full of mixed feelings i possess at this very moment (i.e: pity, sadness, unconditional love accompanied by hatred, question mark, big question mark, bigger question mark, shock, disbelief, denial, and a few more feelings that i can find no names for).

"Beyond the horizon", she used to say. Little did i know the horizon had a limit, and that limit was way closer than i thought.

But my world has no horizons, it has no limits, the world in my head is as perfect as it is, and i'm in it.

I will stay there.

Song:
John Mayer - Heartbreak Warfare

Still Alive

Sometimes, it's hard to breathe.








It's even harder to think about it.






But i'm still alive.

Song:
Pearl Jam - Alive

Back

.... and then i take a gazing glance at you, and you smile as you walk down that isle. You smile and I remember the day I saw that smile for the first time, that smile made me strong, made me hold on, it made me suffer, willingly, it made me let go of all my fears. That smile brought me here.....


I will be back with more, I've been uninspired for a while.... I will try to get that back!

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Misconceptions cleared.

You may think that you know better than I do
That's just because, most of the time, I pretend I don't know
Because I enjoy listening to you explain things to me

I may seem boring, I may have nothing new to say or do
Well why don't you give me a hand with this
You know I can always make you laugh. It's the thing I do best.

Maybe what I do is not interesting to you anymore
But if you look at it from where I stand, you'll realize the beauty I see
Just like I still see the beauty in you

When everything about you makes me feel blue.

Song:
Norah Jones - Turn Me On

Everything?

and then you become my habit
and then you become my love
and then you turn into a smile
and probably an angel from above

and then you become the light
and then you become a fan
and then you give me sight
and then you show me that i can

and what if i don't mind?
what if i don't care?
what if i decide to turn blind?
is life even that fair?

and then you become the future
and the song i always sing
and then you become my torture
and then you become everything

song:
Dave Matthews Band - Crash Into Me

Chronic

It's like a pimple that hurts, it's annoying and it's not on a part of your skin where you'd like it to be. It's chronic, painful.
You feel the urge to scratch it, and the more you do, the worse it becomes.

But it feels good.

Song:

Muse - Feeling Good

An Infamous Encounter

He turned around and said "what if I slap you on the face right now?"
"why would you do that?"
"because I feel like it?"
"Well, as long as it won't hurt" and she smiled.
He smiled back, then he took her hand and started walking along the pavement by the Nile.
They never looked back.
She took a sneaky glance at his face while they were walking. A glance that said "I love you, for everything that you are, and everything that you do"
He pretended as if he didn't notice that glance, and he could feel a wide grin within his soul as he took a deep breath of fresh, Nile-enriched air.

He then noticed, that they were walking in the exact same place where, almost 3 years ago, he realized that he was falling for her.
Things always happen for a reason.
She was his reason.

Was his reason.


Song:
Louis Armstrong - What a Wonderful World

I am Real

When I need to write the most, I can't find the words. Words have been failing me for a while now. So I've decided to just write, and hope for words to come along.
Two concerts back to back last night, too many mixed feelings, happiness, pride, success, pain, confusion, anger, disappointment, bla bla bla
It's draining me.

I came across a quote that made real sense to me at the very moment. Unfortunately I don't know who came up with it:

"Being happy doesn't mean that everything is perfect. It means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections."

I want to feel happy by default, I believe each person creates his/her own reality, and hence fits that reality into his/her life the way it should be. Happiness then becomes a result.
My happiness is different than yours, simple things, actually the simplest things make me happy. Small gestures, smiles, friends, intimacy.

I make my own reality, my reality is real, my life is a journey and I'm driving, I take the turns I want and hence take responsibility for my decisions, and if i go through a road and it's bumpy, I drive slowly till I'm through, and if it's a dead end, well, then how else will I have known?
I'm real

I'm real


Song:
John Butler - Better Man