There's always a way

Dear Blog,

I've been waiting for quite a while, the days seem too long for me, I almost get no sleep, and my health condition is going down. It's not that I have anything to do with this, I'm as helpless as everyone else.
When you lose a limb, say your arm, it's not easy to function with the other one alone. It takes time. But I don't want to get used to functioning with one arm. As a matter of fact, I feel like I'm losing a piece of my heart, and this is not metaphorically speaking.
All my life I've been an independent person, but I am a person who is emotionally driven, and when I do fall in love with someone, that someone becomes part of me, part of my life, part of who I am.
I find no reason to what's going on, why things are getting this complicated, neither do I know where this is going, I hope and pray everyday for this to go in the direction I've been longing for for the past two years. I've worked hard for this, so hard, she too has worked really hard for this, and it's just unfair if things go wrong.

Dear blog,
I'm not writing you this to complain, but to ask you to pray for us. We are almost perfect together, we are happy together, and I know that if the whole world is against us, it doesn't matter, because in the end we'll walk down an isle, heads up. Because I know that when there's a will, there's always a way.

Yours Sincerely
Mohammed J. ELGohary
Alexandria, Egypt
23rd of July 2009

Let it be

What if i was a bird?
Would i be able to fly to places i've never been?
What if i was 10 again?
Would I have made the same choices?
What if this world was different?
Would my life have been the same?
What if my father was a rich man?
Would i have turned out the way i am now?
What if he was a poor man?
Would I have been better or worse?
What if Love never existed?
Would there have been unstable relationships?
What if love wasn't taken for granted?
Would people who fall in love have cherished the feeling more?
What if i were you?
Would i have made the same mistakes you've done?
What if you were me?
Would you have been able to stand my suffering?

I've decided to set the "What ifs" aside, and only do or go with the things that i find suitable for me, I've decided to live with no regrets, therefore i take every step with caution, and I've also decided that I will only do what myself tells me to do. And if the whole world is against me
Let it be....

24

So, I'm 24 today, one year less than a quarter of a decade. I must say it's not easy, not when things around you are mixed up in a way that you cannot fix. All you can do is sit back and let things get sorted out by themselves.
Confusing?
I've been confused to the extent that i have no idea how to de-confuse myself.
You know when you think you've got it all sorted out, but then one thing slips out of place and everything else gets jumbled up?
you then have to pick up the bits and pieces of the jigsaw puzzle that is life and try to solve it all over again. It's tiring i know.
It will be solved
It will be over soon
Really soon

I am..

I am the new day
I am always here to stay
I am the crimson sunrise
I am the thing you realize
I am the hug you long for
I am that wide open door
I am the man behind the child
I am the one who makes you smile
I am the wound that leaves no scar
I am that shiny little star
I am a brother, a friend
I am not another trend
I am also responsible
I am also sometimes sensible
I am the life i look forward to
I am a person who is always true
I am that purple sunset
I am your winning bet
I am waiting with hope
I am holding the rope
I am not getting tired
I am glad to be inspired
I am one made out of two
I am the outcome of me and you

"Inspired by Sara El-Sayeh" http://journalling-sunsets.blogspot.com/